I am 56 years old .I was a Midwifery sister for 3 ,years .Had a husband and three children and a wonderful life until 2003 I started suffering with depression and schitzophrenia.So I started to drink and take drugs .I lost evey and ended up homeless .As a 5 year old child I was abused by my friends father and all the past came back to haunt me .However after a serious illness through injecting dirty needles I almost lost my leg .I'm now disabled and have multiple organ failures and problems .However ,I have become sober and clean and am rebuilding my life and it's almost getting good but the journey been the hardest thing I have ever done .My recovery will be for the rest of my life .My addiction comes in different disguises and wants me back in the chaos .The dynamics of my family and friends relationship isn't the same .People don't trust me and I have to work hard to gain the love and trust of my family and friends.I give speeches to families of addicts as well as addicts .I also speak about life skills and motivation .